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Day 12: Loneliness
Loneliness is a hard feeling to describe. It is connected to depression, but it is not the same thing. Anxiety may be a fear of exposure: that we might be seen and judged. Loneliness may be a fear that we might never be seen and valued for who we are.
Cannabis does not directly cause or cure loneliness, but loneliness is still addressed here because it is so real for so many of us. Indirectly, cannabis may have helped keep it away. But at this point in your t-break, as the harsh noise of irritability starts to diminish, perhaps you are now hearing the hum of loneliness.
Cannabis may help some people bond. Mostly, it’s simple to feel good about this. But occasionally, we start to question if anyone really knows us, or if anyone cares. Some of that may be paranoia from cannabis- you may just have been too high. But some of that is doubting the authenticity of our connections. (We will talk about ‘connection’ in Week 3.)
You are not alone. Like anyone, you could probably stand to strengthen and deepen your connections a bit more. Now, during this t-break, is a great time. Your authenticity (in your strengths and flaws) is what makes you real to others. That is the heart of connection and the antidote to loneliness. Try and let yourself be seen